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don’t make me go wumbo ([personal profile] grice) wrote2020-08-27 11:53 am
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text; un: ethan

[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 10:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Despite himself, he's a little hesitant to send the message to Falco. It has less to do with trust and more to do with the implications of... a lot of things -60 said. Falco's obviously more worldly than most when it comes to serious subjects, but... well, he's a worry-wart, despite himself.]

Falco, are you around? I might need your help with something.

It involves the other Connor.
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
[That makes him frown. How to explain that... the amount of hesitation as he types is unusual, and he supposes that says all that needs to be said on the matter.]

Alright. I'll explain when you get here.

As for supplies... something to dig with, if you have anything, and a pair of sharp eyes if you know any to spare, but I've opened a post on the network for that too. I don't suspect I'll need too much more than that.
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 11:33 am (UTC)(link)
Superficial, most likely. I don't think we'll have to dig deeply.

[Connor wouldn't risk that.]

I'm sending you a location to meet me, it's on the north end of town.
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 12:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's been lost in thought, checking the network post he'd made off and on. It's notable that he's alone, of course, and when he looks up to see Falco, he raises a hand in relative greeting.

When the youth approaches, he'll probably notice Ethan's expression first - drawn and quiet, just this side of... Is it upset? Clearly, whatever it is, it's bothering him.]


{Thank you for coming.}

[He's under too much turmoil to rely on his own voice right now, but at least Falco's heard him with both.

For a moment, he's unsure how much to tell. A lot of it's still extrapolation, but there's one very strong value of clarity. And if anyone deserves to hear the entire story... It's probably Falco. Best to just come out with it, then.]


{We're going to be finding his- body, when the others arrive. If others arrive.}

[His jaw sets grimly while he explains, gaze somewhat downward as he watches Falco's response. It's blunt, but honest, sparing the detail for the initial explanation.]
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 02:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can see it as Falco works through the facts. The moment that determination turns to understanding, the moment understanding gives way to pain.

He can still hear Connor's voice, dead and weary. The absolute certainty that this was just his life now, as if--]


{I take it something else had happened, but it's... Something Connor had alluded to, before. I'd forgotten about it altogether.}

[He'd forgotten and he wishes he didn't have to remember it now. There's still the question of how Ethan learned where -60 was in the first place, but he seems particularly reticent on that subject.]

{Sorry to drag you into this, Falco. I couldn't just leave him however he's been-- dismantled. I just... Also can't rely on my limbs for the work.}

[It twists in his gut to think about it. Connor doesn't even need a human sense of cruelty to slide into the logic of everything. The thought of it leaves him dizzy and almost lost to himself. The fact that he can't even so much as do the damn digging himself...

If he'd just remembered, if he'd given any kind of warning... How different would it be?]


{I'll take care of him. Whenever we find him. Based on the last we talked, that's probably... For the best.}
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-26 04:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[The only way. He'd thought it was a brilliant plan, at the time, in all of his machine logic.

And yet, here they are. Ethan reaches to place a hand on Falco's shoulder. It trembles, uncertainty and resolve wreaking havoc on the senses.]


Slow breaths.

[His voice is... Tired, weak. It's threaded with a sense of certainty, a knowledge of weakness. Moreover, there's something deeper in it that he's not about to talk about.

It's not as if he can really blame Connor for the decision. As a machine, it's the most efficient path.]


{He has a place to be, for now. Trust me. I wouldn't have waited for the network of I thought otherwise.}

[He can't explain that, but his expression is serious, earnest. The difference in Falco is clear, heartbreaking. He's been at this too long, seen too much in a short life. He's... It hurts to think about. Especially in a world as old as the one Falco's mentioned before.]

{We'll find him, fix this. I agree with you, after all. Even if I can understand why he wanted to do this, there's no way I could let him become that kind of person.}

[That goes against everything he's done so far. And it hurts so much more personally for him - though he won't know for a while how deeply.]
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CW: implication of torture, talk of murder

[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-28 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
[Ethan smiles, despite himself, when Falco speaks. Someone will need to talk to -51, and he's... uniquely unqualified to have that conversation, after all this. Still, it... bothers him a little.

It's not that he has any lack of faith in Falco's abilities - this is distinctly a personal feeling. If it weren't so important, and if Falco wasn't the only one who knew the actual value of what he was doing 'wrong', maybe he would have left him aside. It wouldn't have been fair, but it would have been less painful.

There's nothing good, after all, about shielding someone from the heaviness of the world at every turn. He suspects that Falco's seen enough of it already.]


{It'll be good, I think. You talking to him. I'm not sure when I'll be... able to, given all this.}

[Given the betrayal. He's not sure it'll actually be forgiven.

His lips purse as Falco paces, considering the words. Bring him to him... maybe it'd be good. Maybe he should get the conversation over and done with. At the same time...

He should probably let Connor get his bearings. Figure things out, especially if Falco explains. He'd be angry, wouldn't he? If this, this desperate try to do what he thinks is best, was thwarted so, and by someone he trusted...

It hurts to think about, so he doesn't.]


{That's alright. I'll... get to talk to him eventually. I'm not mad, either. I would have hesitated a lot less in doing this, if it was... someone else. Someone threatening me, my people.}

[He can still see the blood, if he closes his eyes. Hear the sounds, the sobs. His fingers curl.]

{I don't think we'll be able to. It's... I'm going to release him from it.} [... No. He should be realistic. Sugar-coating it isn't worth anything.] {I told him I would take care of it. So, if it's half as bad as it sounded... I'll kill him to make it stop. It's what has to be done, in that case.}
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-30 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[People do what they do, after all. What makes them feel humane, alive. It's more than that, for him - a ponderous connection he's not sure has any space to be here.

Falco brings up an invariably good question, though - what will they do with -60, once he resets? Ethan's brows pinch as he considers.

The reality is that their location is going to make him inconvenient, personally. It'd taken such a damn long time to even get here, finding -60 afterward is...]


{I'm not sure. Even if I was half as my leader in speaking to others, I... Don't really think I'd be able to catch up to him.} [Especially not if he does what he thinks he will, and takes the penalty for the android. It's the last thing he'd thought would happen - well, no. It's among the later thoughts. Taking a metaphorical bullet for -60, of all people?] {Getting to him to stop whatever he gets in his head is important. Even he ought to need a minute to collect his thoughts after all this. He was... In pretty bad shape, as far as I could tell.}

[Some part of him is aware of just how much wishful thinking this is, but he blatantly ignores it. For one long, painful moment, he can let himself believe, can't he? It would be best if -60 takes a moment to really consider where he stands, where to prioritise what order...

Admin had told him to reconsider, but that's not how he is. Even machines don't deserve to just be reprogrammed because you fucked up and made them work arguably more as intended.

He knows, on some level, he's underestimating the vindictive streak in his ally.

He knows full well how easy it'll be to want to push forward despite everything logical screaming to stop.

He knows... But maybe that's why.

It probably won't change anything.

His actions might just be pain for himself.

That's alright.

He wishes Dolvaa were here. At least then -60 could talk with someone who actually understands how to talk through his thoughts.

'I don't pity you, Ethan, because pity suggests that there is no way to move forward. Pity is the bitter taste that--'

He exhales a shaking breath, running a hand through his hair.]


{If I can make it to him, I'd like to take to him, but I'm likely to make it worse somehow. I'm bad at holding my tongue when it comes to my feelings on the ones who built him.

Getting his focus on anything else would be best, even for a minute, else he's probably going to have to deal with whatever reprogramming the Admin thinks is best. This isn't sustainable for anyone.}

[His shoulders sag at the thought. He'll have tried, at least.]
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[personal profile] syntech 2020-10-31 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
[Thinking on the future, Ethan decides, is better than thinking on the possibilities of what's to come. It helps to push past the ball of anxiety and self-loathing that's been slowly but surely building since he finally talked to -60.]

{That's the best idea, I think. I'd say to take care of yourself, but I doubt you need the reminder, and you'll do what you think is best regardless.}

[There's little inflection in the voice for obvious reason, but there's fondness on his face. Ethan's opinion is pretty clear, when it comes to Falco - he's young, but he's trustworthy.]